I am finding it hard to accept I am 'ill' when I don't feel unwell and have hardly any symptoms.
My only symptoms are a tiny bit of blood on the toilet paper some days, and a little tiredness. I believe I am slightly anaemic. I have had a colonoscopy, biopsies showing 'high grade dysplasia' and a CT scan, and am now booked in for an operation on either 4th or 11th May. I need to have an assessment with the anaesthetist first, apparently, which might delay things until the 11th. I have had Crohn's disease for 20 years plus.
I feel fine, and so am bewildered that I am going to walk into hospital feeling great but emerge 10 days or so later in a delicate post-operative state with 8 weeks recovery time needed.
I understand it, intellectually, but it all feels like a theoretical discussion about someone else......and a bad dream.
Anyone else feeling similar? I am struggling to come to terms with this. Any advice/thoughts gratefully received.