New to the community
I was diagnosed with stage IV bowel cancer just before Xmas. Looks like it’s metastised to lymph nodes and omentum and possibly lungs. I’ve been told it’s not curable so I’m on chemo I’ve had a right hemicolectomy where there removed the entire primary tumour. Now two chemo sessions down and 4 to go before next ct.
I’m 31 years old and to be honest I’m not coping with it as well as I had hoped I would. Initially I was ready to fight and crack on with the chemo but knowing it’s incurable I’m struggling to find the reason to do it. Before diagnosis I was an independent person living in london I loved going to work and had a great social life. I’m still
living in my shared house, my housemates have been amazing but I’m really crashing at the moment.
I think I’m driving my poor brother and parents mad because they want me to fight and carry on with the treatment so much but I am at such a low point at the moment I can’t seem to find the fight in me to do it.
I’ve been told I should speak to someone but I don’t think I would respond well to counselling. That being said maybe i should talk to someone or at least give it a try. Not sure if anyone can recommend something?
Sorry for the long message. All the uncertainty and shock has really knocked me for six and I’m really disappointed in how weak I’m being.