My Dad's Recent Diagnosis
My dad got diagnosed with bowel cancer on Tuesday and I'm finding it difficult to keep my emotions in check. I broke down as soon as I found out and then had to sit an exam for university the next day - I managed to concentrate for whole of half an hour before I had to leave due to emotional distress.
I'm not sure what stage it is but he is due to have surgery to remove the tumour completely and then he may have to have chemo after because the surgeon said his lymph nodes looked a bit inflamed but they don't 100% know. He is in hospital this coming Tuesday and the Tuesday after for IV Iron because he is anaemic.
How do people cope when they are alone? When I'm at work or in company I find myself composed but its when I'm left to myself that I become really upset. The hospital were positive about his prognosis but all I can think in my head is 'what if he dies'. I'm not even 21 yet, my younger sister isn't even 18 yet! What if he doesn't get to see us reach these milestones?
I try really hard to be positive and sometimes it works by me thinking that its just a lump that needs to be removed but the more I read into Bowel Cancer the more I think its just a ticking clock for him.
Would really appreciate some advice